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Homesick (Original)

Type: Official
Writers: Doug Schadt , Grace Vanderwaal
Times Performed: 9
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Notes

“For my entire childhood, I thought, 'When I have an apartment in New York City, everything will be okay.' Now, I'm grown up, and I think, 'Everything would be okay if I was just waking up at seven and waiting for the school bus again'. Nostalgia is painful. We always look back at a moment we considered to be the epitome of perfection, but was it ever real?” (from the description of the music video)

"Homesick has the craving arms that never held me, a childhood bed that may never even have existed, like you remember your childhood as a place where the grass was saturated green and the air was full of the cleanest oxygen you ever smelled” (Grace to (Zach Sang, April 2025)

"For my entire childhood, I thought, ‘When I have an apartment in New York City, everything will be okay.’ Now, I’m grown up, and I think, ‘Everything would be okay if I was just waking up at seven and waiting for the school bus again’. Nostalgia is painful. We always look back at a moment we considered to be the epitome of perfection, but was it ever real?" (Interview with Pulp Magazine, May 2025)
Source: Grace Vanderwaal



Performances

2025.04.03 CHILDSTAR Final Act ()
2025.05.04 Lincoln Hall Childstar Tour
2025.05.04 Lincoln Hall Childstar Tour "Soundcheck" before the show
2025.05.07 The Great Hall Childstar Tour
2025.05.09 Atlantis Childstar Tour Filmed from front, center
2025.05.10 Racket Childstar Tour Full song
2025.05.18 The Roxy Childstar Tour Shot from front of stage right
2025.05.21 Brick & Mortar Childstar Tour
2025.05.24 VIER Live (Electric Pony Studios) Childstar Tour

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Releases

Release Date Record Type Track
2025-04-04Child StarLP3

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I'm homesick for a day that never happened
And I'm going to a place that I imagined
I'll awaken in my bed, the sheets are sweated
I don't know when the best of my life happened

[Chorus]
'Cause I waste every moment on the chase
Oh, it's never over
For the day that can't get any better
If it's not mine, it's gone forever
But then why do I remember?

[Verse 2]
I'm craving arms that never held me like a mother
Who's love's so safe it's deadly
And I'm small, and I'm warm and all that's real is the moment
And I'm no longer a woman, I just melt into the floor

[Chorus]
While I waste every moment on the chase
Oh, it's never over
For the day that can't get any better
If it's not mine, it's gone forever
But then why do I remember?

[Bridge]
All I ever wanted never did exist at all
I feel like my whole life has been haunted
By a child who never was
And all I ever wanted never did exist at all
I feel like my whole life has been haunted
By a child who never was

[Outro]
All I ever wanted never did exist at all, mmh
By a child who never was

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